I Wasted My 20s

I definitely wasted my 20s and I’m going to explain how and why. Do I regret not focusing on my writing, yes and no. Yes because I could've had way more content but I hadn't learned about the realities of the world and how it works until my 30s. In my 20s it was you get a publishing deal or your book wasn't getting published, now I have the freedom to control every aspect of the process.


I wish I did mentally focus on myself more in my 20s. I was too busy trying to make everyone else happy that I lost myself and my own happiness. So here I am, making up for lost time and publishing books every few months because I don't want to keep my talents and gifts from others.


Yes I did party, drink, hang out with friends and do all of the things 20 somethings do. In a nutshell, I bullshitted a lot. I went from job to job in the sports field trying to find my niche and find happiness in Corporate America. I didn’t understand or realize how much my talents in writing can change the world and this is the reason why I do it. 


I post a lot of free content which is my gift back to the world to say thank you for reading my words and appreciating me and my talent. I've owned up to the fact that I wasted my 20s, but I know that in my mind I would not have been able to write the books that I am writing now. 


So in a way, it's good and bad that I wasted my 20s. It's good because eventually I would find myself, who I am, what I'm becoming and where my future is going. It's bad because I'm 10 years behind in my writing which is why I'm making up for lost time now. 


As I continue on this journey, I’m thankful for those who appreciate my writing. Starting my writing at 13 years old but not fully embracing my talent until my early 30s, it was a matter of time before I embarked on this path of my life. It has been an up and down roller coaster ride but at the end of the day, I want to impact millions.


Jamell Crouthers


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